Thursday, June 12, 2008

June 12

June 12 did not start out ordinary and did not become ordinary and just won't be ordinary. My sister called and awakened me with the impossible news that her middle son, our Nathan, died. Just died. Suddenly. Tragically. He wasn't in a car accident and he didn't have a terminal disease. He was just a foolish young man who knew that he knew what he could do. I don't know how many before him and I can't know how many to follow behind him, but I do know that if you mess with heroin, it will mess with you. It took him for a ride and he can't come back. Our hearts are broken. There is a black hole. a void. a nothingness. We will all go on, but we will go on without Nathan. Without his crooked little smirky smile and oh so smart impersonations. Without the little boy in the flintstone mobile delivering pizza to anyone who wanted some. Without the Kraft macaroni and cheese or the all cheese, all the time channel. Without sweet jazz wafting out of his room ... without him. We love you and we will miss you. I am not a good writer and I am not poetic. But I needed to put this down in words, because people need to know.


Firefly Nights said...

So sorry to learn about your nephew. This is a very sad time for you and your family. Please know others are thinking about you.

KSee said...

Oh, Cat! My thoughts are with you and your family.

jane said...

My heart is breaking for you and your family. May God be with you and may Nathan be with God. Jane P.

Robin C said...

my thoughts and prayers are with you my friend. I know the anguish your whole family is experiencing and wish I could take it from you but I can't. Just know that God will help you each day to get through the pain and suffering and know that I am there if you need me.

Robin C

CraftyGryphon said...

**hugs** to you and your family!

Your Love Life is Like Casablanca
"Kiss me. Kiss me as if it were the last time."

For you, love is never finished. If you've loved someone once, you'll always love them.
You're an old fashioned romantic... even if your relationships don't end up as romantic as you'd like.

Your love style: Traditional and understated

Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Complicated and ambiguous